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I don’t know how to feel..

This woman is giving me attitude today, and I am not here for it. KEEP IT VERY CUTE MAM!

I am fucked. I caught feelings. I miss this young man SO much. It’s ridiculous, like right now I just want to put my head on his chest and throw my leg over his. Play in his hair..and just be.

Smt. I’m fucked. Fucked I tell ya.

Pros of Going Out Tonight

1. I might have fun. Cause my crew is awesome.
2. It’ll be my last outing before I lock down to study for finals.

Cons of Going Out Tonight

1. I don’t feel like going out, so I might not have fun.
2. If I go and still don’t feel like going, I paid money to have a sour attitude. Ehh..no thanks.
3. I might have to cut a bitch..we don’t want that.
4. I don’t feel like going.
5. Nothing to wear.
6. I don’t feel like going.
7. I spend money.
8. I don’t feel like going.

‘Cons’ won. I’m not going anywhere..

Sometimes I just feel so alone, even though I’m never really alone. I sleep alot. That way I don’t have to dwell on anything or kill myself with overthinking. Sometimes my subconscious is a bitch and I end up having weird dreams too though. 

I’m keeping alot inside. Because even though I have people who care, they don’t really understand. I may just wish to understand people, but sometimes I want to be understood too.

I give. I give. And I give. I listen. I do the things a good friend is supposed to. I listen to the secrets, keep the secrets, give advice, listen when they don’t take my advice and cry on my shoulder.

Gets tiring. Being among people who take and take but rarely give. I’m thinking about taking a hiatus for two weeks or so..

I need to recharge. I need to center myself. If I don’t, I’m very likely to blow up on the next fucker that irritates me.

“When I found you, I found my most intimate prayer.” 

Yoo, that line is so deep. I think if someone ever told me that and meant it, I’d melt. Indescribable. 

I hate when this boy takes long to reply to me..by the time he does reply, I’m just no longer interested in the conversation breh!

Preparing for my second semester of my freshman year of college..and I’m sitting here asking myself .. “what do I want to do with my life?” .. I really don’t know.

All I know is I don’t want to spend years learning about things I don’t really care for.

When I was smaller I wanted to major in political science & english. Why am I not doing that? Why am I in Biology? :S Questions that need answers.

Man..

Do not attempt to play with my emotions. You will not win this game. You will not.

I feel horrible. But that’s no reason to bring 2013 in looking a mess.

I adore Kanye West. You guys don’t understand. ADORE him. And I’ll be the first to admit I was never really too thrilled about this Kimye pairing except for their immaculate style & the possibility of a fabulous partner in crime for Blue Ivy.

He just seems so happy..and man, I like seeing Ye happy. So if he likes it, I love it. Hey. #Kimye .. I know this man is going to give us a great album. 

I sing because I’m happy! I sing because I’m free!

You know when you think you really want something..and you get it, and it’s not what you expected? Yeah..

Some good conversation. 

Physical chemistry.

Mental connection.

Emotions.

That’s all I want.

I’m open to love..but it’s not a must.

I have the greatest love for myself & the love of God.

I’m not lacking in the love department.

I guess..I just want some nice companionship.

Hm. :)

I feel like 2013 is going to be a year of growth for me.

I can feel the changes already. I’m here for it though. *fingers crossed*